Thursday, August 27, 2009

My thoughts on staying home - Part 1

I have been wanting to write a few posts (for memory's sake) about my thoughts on staying at home. I don't think it's any big surprise that once baby #2 comes along, I plan to be at home with my kids, at least for a while.

It is that phrase "a while" that has me a bit nervous, among other things. I'm a number cruncher and a "budget - er". I love to budget. We are so close to making it work that we're just going to give it a shot. I have no idea how tight I can pinch things when I become a stay-at-home-mom. So, we're just going to see.

I have a few other opportunities that might come up. Some of you might remember that I used to teach voice lessons. There is a possibility that I might be able to do that again to help bring in some income, without a lot of cost.

However, this brings me to the heart of the matter. . . being with my kids.

Life seems so short to me sometimes. I feel called to be the primary influence in my kids lives. I know it won't be easy and sacrifices will be made but I can't ever imagine regretting this decision.

I have gotten so much encouragement as a parent from this blog:

Her words are so soothing to me and so uplifting so I hope you all enjoy it.

I was thinking the other day about how it hasn't gotten any easier to leave my daughter during this year and a half of working. I still miss her when she's not here, I think about her all day - what she's doing. I wonder if she's upset or crying and feel sad that mommy isn't there to wipe away the tears. I want to be there playing with her, feeding her, parenting her.

However, I do want to say how blessed we've been by our daycare situation. I cannot imagine any better scenario because we have loving and wonderful grandparents watching her and a loving and wonderful babysitter. I can tell by Abigail's reactions to them that she is well cared for . . . and that certainly does help. I am certainly not implying here that I'm unhappy with her care, in fact the opposite is true.

This is all for post #1 but there will be more. In the meantime, I am just simply looking forward to being mommy - the teacher, cook, comforter, doctor, playmate, and maid (and many other hats, I'm sure) to my children.


Jennifer said...

The rewards far outweigh any sacrifices you have to make. You should pick up Dr. Laura's book "In Praise of Stay At Home Moms"--it's a great read and very encouraging!

Jaime said...

Thanks for the recommendation. I will look into that!