I had a wonderful day . . . up to a point.
Abigail got home from her Nana's and we had a nice supper together, read some, and got her ready for bed. Andrew's cousin came over to babysit so I could go to our small group Christmas party tonight.
As soon as I said good-bye to Abigail, she had a complete melt-down. I have NEVER seen her cry and scream like that before. NEVER. Complete hysterics. I finally (after 15 minutes of calming her down) decided to try to leave anyway.
I got all loaded in the van and gave it 5 or 10 minutes to see if she'd calm down. I listened at the door and could still hear her screaming (she never does this) so I went back in.
The ONLY thing she wanted was to go with me in the "new car". So, I bravely decided to try to take both girls. She would not go to bed for me and she did not want to stay with Andrew's cousin and play.
After taking Andrew's cousin home, Elsie started screaming in the car and Abigail kept saying "home" so I gave up and just came home.
Abigail was fine once we got back and went to bed easily. I can only think that this was some sort of reaction to 1) not being around me all day, and 2) having Elsie get to go with me to the party and she didn't get to go. Anyway, it made my nerves SHOT!
Ugh, so much for feeling like I had this two-kid thing down. Not only am I disappointed to miss our young marrieds small group Christmas party but I feel like an utter failure as a mom. Yuck!
I MISS MY HUSBAND! Ugh!
2 comments:
You are NOT an failure as a mom. Just thought I'd let you know that in case you needed some affirmation :) In fact, I admire you for all you do do with two kids. I tried to go out and buy Chuck's Christmas present today and didn't make it very far down the road before Johnathan started crying. I made it to the door of the store before I decided it wasn't worth it (he was still crying) and went home. Oh well.
That happened with Abigail once, I remember. It was so cold and I had taken her into a store in a carrier and she was just screaming. Not fun.
The hardest part was that Andrew kept telling me I could do it and so it just made me feel bad when I couldn't! I just wasn't sure how Abigail would react when we got there and I couldn't really deal with her being clingy and having Elsie need something too.
Oh well!
P.S. Thanks for the affirmation! :)
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